looking at my past entries, i jus realized that the things i blogged abt was really all the bad and sad stuff.. never have anything interesting but i guessed this sem was really quite bad.. start to wonder if i really played too hard.. hmm.. maybe?! was talking abt depression today w some of my friends.. one was like saying vv often we slipped into depression w/o knowing it and make our way out unknowingly as well.. and vv often its in and out then in and out again.. i tot abt it and maybe its vv true.. how many times do we feel like crying when something doesnt fall in place.. i do quite often.. maybe its not because i am vv prone to depression but rather i value things abit differently...
hmm.. like a comment made by a teacher.. i tot when i heard some comment address to a grp of students that doesnt sound vv nice.. i will feel more of sad.. but my friends (most) felt a little pissed.. i have low self confidence i knew it.. it was really worst before.. teaching has really make me braver.. i dunno.. i always tend to feel lousier than others.. and blame myself.. i guessed to come out w 101 reasons to blame will be easy.. i am changing that i and guessed i have to.. cant afford to be feeling unhappy all the times if i cant get things the right way.. then at times i also vv stubborn.. argue my way out and jus wanna win.. so i am havng some sorta split personality? haha.. hmm.. i guessed it because i tend to be a little more emotional ba.. BUT i have to stressed that when all is smooth.. i am happy and crazy and 85% of my times i am.. crappy and nonsense.. the other 15% cant help it.. i am a human..
blogging abt unhappy things is definitely much ezier.. err.. jus complain and ratter non-stop.. jus $%%^%%^##@ then its done.. whereas for the happier moment. we tend to keep it to ourselves.. treasure it and not talk much abt it.. cos it jus move into our memory bank and of cos good feelngs are hard to be put in words.. yarr really hard.. besides the few ' i love you' , ' thank you'.. what else are there?..
today was a bad day actually.. cos i nv meet up w my expectation or should i rephrase it, i jus flung again?! i am seriovusly v lousy at hiding feeling.. most of my friends can see it at one go that i am nt really feeling good today.. haha.. cant cheated on others huh.. how sad.. but i am feeling a little better le.. now i jus wanna find out my mistake and work harder for the end yr.. its getting more and mor tiring.. and the longer it dragged the worst we felt.. the shorter the time we can concentrate on mugging.. its like losing the energy and the determination cos we are plain tired and all drained out.. my friends and i all felt that.. haha.. so for once i am normal..
appreciate those who tolerate my 'blur and sian' mood for the entire day and still working on the project w me.. and my shu ku friends .. and for sure the one call that cheered me up a little :)
small print: you hav repeated the same stuff 2 days in a row le.. i will rmb it for sure :P sob sob.. you betta nt mean it huh.. if not spoil my day even more..
looking at my past entries, i jus realized that the things i blogged abt was really all the bad and sad stuff.. never have anything interesting but i guessed this sem was really quite bad.. start to wonder if i really played too hard.. hmm.. maybe?! was talking abt depression today w some of my friends.. one was like saying vv often we slipped into depression w/o knowing it and make our way out unknowingly as well.. and vv often its in and out then in and out again.. i tot abt it and maybe its vv true.. how many times do we feel like crying when something doesnt fall in place.. i do quite often.. maybe its not because i am vv prone to depression but rather i value things abit differently...
hmm.. like a comment made by a teacher.. i tot when i heard some comment address to a grp of students that doesnt sound vv nice.. i will feel more of sad.. but my friends (most) felt a little pissed.. i have low self confidence i knew it.. it was really worst before.. teaching has really make me braver.. i dunno.. i always tend to feel lousier than others.. and blame myself.. i guessed to come out w 101 reasons to blame will be easy.. i am changing that i and guessed i have to.. cant afford to be feeling unhappy all the times if i cant get things the right way.. then at times i also vv stubborn.. argue my way out and jus wanna win.. so i am havng some sorta split personality? haha.. hmm.. i guessed it because i tend to be a little more emotional ba.. BUT i have to stressed that when all is smooth.. i am happy and crazy and 85% of my times i am.. crappy and nonsense.. the other 15% cant help it.. i am a human..
blogging abt unhappy things is definitely much ezier.. err.. jus complain and ratter non-stop.. jus $%%^%%^##@ then its done.. whereas for the happier moment. we tend to keep it to ourselves.. treasure it and not talk much abt it.. cos it jus move into our memory bank and of cos good feelngs are hard to be put in words.. yarr really hard.. besides the few ' i love you' , ' thank you'.. what else are there?..
today was a bad day actually.. cos i nv meet up w my expectation or should i rephrase it, i jus flung again?! i am seriovusly v lousy at hiding feeling.. most of my friends can see it at one go that i am nt really feeling good today.. haha.. cant cheated on others huh.. how sad.. but i am feeling a little better le.. now i jus wanna find out my mistake and work harder for the end yr.. its getting more and mor tiring.. and the longer it dragged the worst we felt.. the shorter the time we can concentrate on mugging.. its like losing the energy and the determination cos we are plain tired and all drained out.. my friends and i all felt that.. haha.. so for once i am normal..
appreciate those who tolerate my 'blur and sian' mood for the entire day and still working on the project w me.. and my shu ku friends .. and for sure the one call that cheered me up a little :)
small print: you hav repeated the same stuff 2 days in a row le.. i will rmb it for sure :P sob sob.. you betta nt mean it huh.. if not spoil my day even more..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
