it some much better this days.. but i am really SERIOUSLY dead tired at times.. tired of the fact that sometimes i think whether i should be putting myself in all these.. experiencing all the uncomfort.. pulling myself together and making it all seemed fine, making myself seem stronger than ever, but i am a real weakling, and then working and slaving myself cos i badly want a good grade made and make myself look smart when in actual fact i am not really so.. and maybe i should not be loving someone when i tot i couldnt be able to give in all and.. is it fair for him, does he mind.. sometimes i wonder.. i really a little girl that think TOO TOO much...
now.. i still have like a quiz to study this thurs, 2 tut to complete before thurs come and why am i doing this.. i have a bloody mc in my hand.. so why bother..simply becausei wanna try.. its jus to stretch myself to prove and not make it seemed like all an excuse.. i so like to torture myself.. come to think abt it..
i am feeling real sad and everything.. thats the reason why i cried(duh.. like who cry for nth).. i cried.. i know i might be a real crybaby.. but it have been sometimes i cried cos of this.. cos course i am a mixed in emotion.. but how many ppl can uds.. like i say.. everyone that blame themselves for causing whatever things i have to me.. dun worry i have charged the blame like a millions times to my own account.. it has been so long i have felt this way.. i think i have to say.. i am learning to be happy.. i am learning.. i am serious.. maybe its jus a phase in a 'patient' feeling.. i am jus experiencing it.. i will be ok soon.. give me some days to peace my mind.. i always do that...
more cheering up session i guessed.. realized that there are really a few concerned souls ard me.. i am so thankful.. and a special number from dkk..
it some much better this days.. but i am really SERIOUSLY dead tired at times.. tired of the fact that sometimes i think whether i should be putting myself in all these.. experiencing all the uncomfort.. pulling myself together and making it all seemed fine, making myself seem stronger than ever, but i am a real weakling, and then working and slaving myself cos i badly want a good grade made and make myself look smart when in actual fact i am not really so.. and maybe i should not be loving someone when i tot i couldnt be able to give in all and.. is it fair for him, does he mind.. sometimes i wonder.. i really a little girl that think TOO TOO much...
now.. i still have like a quiz to study this thurs, 2 tut to complete before thurs come and why am i doing this.. i have a bloody mc in my hand.. so why bother..simply becausei wanna try.. its jus to stretch myself to prove and not make it seemed like all an excuse.. i so like to torture myself.. come to think abt it..
i am feeling real sad and everything.. thats the reason why i cried(duh.. like who cry for nth).. i cried.. i know i might be a real crybaby.. but it have been sometimes i cried cos of this.. cos course i am a mixed in emotion.. but how many ppl can uds.. like i say.. everyone that blame themselves for causing whatever things i have to me.. dun worry i have charged the blame like a millions times to my own account.. it has been so long i have felt this way.. i think i have to say.. i am learning to be happy.. i am learning.. i am serious.. maybe its jus a phase in a 'patient' feeling.. i am jus experiencing it.. i will be ok soon.. give me some days to peace my mind.. i always do that...
more cheering up session i guessed.. realized that there are really a few concerned souls ard me.. i am so thankful.. and a special number from dkk..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
