hmm.. there is something wrong w blogger.. i cant seem to type in the entry properly.. anyway jus heard a super shocking news today.. real shocking.. haiz.. somtimes things jus dun turn out the way it is.. its so long alr and things can still turned out the wrong way.. thats what i call uncertainty.. the ONE thing that i hate.. but no choice life is jus full of that..
anw.. i tot abt wat al say abt pt.. yupz its getting abit scary w him asking me for breakfast and yar the late night smses.. maybe i wronged him but at least i have to guard against him since i have heard quite ano. of things that had happened to a few of the girls.. he jus got my number you see..er so now its my turn?! hope i see him wrongly.. i hate to judge a person when i dun uds him well enuff but this time round no choice.. precaution..
**ren yi shi feng ping lang jing, tui yi bu hai guo tian kong**
sigh.. am i sensitive or sensitive or is it that there is somthing wrong w the way i communicate..there is like misinterpretation everywhere.. i kept saying wrong things and yar i jus tend to interpret the wrong things almost everytime when there is a change in the tone.. the tone jus made me feel bad so i shut up.. cos i know that when i opened my mouth.. the tone and the words that come out wont be appealing too.. its a weakness in me.. and it has caused the unhappiness in both my family and my relationships w people..
i dun like the idea of things turning rotten at times.. if minus all these parts, all was well cos we match and mismatch..understand that no one is prefect and that no one is similar..we are not the clone of the other.. and we do express concerns for each other, we care(duh!) however, we both have THE temper(stubbornness and what-ing).. the temper is making our life a little messy.. i dun think these are known as quarrels jus maybe a little emotional ba.. its nt angry or anything its jus err.. i dunno how to put it.. but is it common in a r/s? i not very sure i am still learning to handle.. but it affects my mood for sure cos i become a little emotional.. the feeling of being 'snapped'( i cant find a good word but you should know what i meant) at isnt really good.. seriously i too understand wad it feel like when someone go ahead with the things you have asked him/her not to do.. i know you dun like it.. its a mistake today i made.. but what fails us at times will be our stupid temper.. silly cos at the end of the day we meant well for each other, not selfish reasons at all..
luckily we both of us are willing to let each other at times.. willing to apologize for our mistakes and somtimes maybe 'willing' to talk it out.. if nt things wont have worked out.. but how long will this willingness last? i dunno.. here comes the part that leads to uncertainty once again.. i hope its gg to be forever that both of us will be willing.. of cos at the same time we have to minimize the times we feel rotten.. for me it will be to learn to be sensitive to yr request at times and being insensitive at the other times (ie stop being defensive).. changing to suit each other liking is really important.. not a fundamental change cos we are still ourself but a change to accomodate each other; to not do things that the other party dun like.. as for you i will leave it for you u think abt it.. its not up to me to say.. all i thought now was that things will turned out fine.. dun you think so da? you had always told be to be positive:)
love the sweet things you did.. thanks for remembering everything i say.. rmbing that somtimes i will feel uncomfortable so you ask me for my opinion.. rmbing that my bag is always heavy and full of junk and then subsequently u always carried a bag to reduce my nonsense load.. rmbing that i am forgetful and then provide me with the necessary reminders.. telling me and ensuring me that things are gg to turned out fine, giving me the assurance and confidence.. teaching me when i dunno.. and many many more to go.. of cos most importantly rmbing the fact that i am here and for accepting me.. thanks for being here for me..
hmm.. there is something wrong w blogger.. i cant seem to type in the entry properly.. anyway jus heard a super shocking news today.. real shocking.. haiz.. somtimes things jus dun turn out the way it is.. its so long alr and things can still turned out the wrong way.. thats what i call uncertainty.. the ONE thing that i hate.. but no choice life is jus full of that..
anw.. i tot abt wat al say abt pt.. yupz its getting abit scary w him asking me for breakfast and yar the late night smses.. maybe i wronged him but at least i have to guard against him since i have heard quite ano. of things that had happened to a few of the girls.. he jus got my number you see..er so now its my turn?! hope i see him wrongly.. i hate to judge a person when i dun uds him well enuff but this time round no choice.. precaution..
**ren yi shi feng ping lang jing, tui yi bu hai guo tian kong**
sigh.. am i sensitive or sensitive or is it that there is somthing wrong w the way i communicate..there is like misinterpretation everywhere.. i kept saying wrong things and yar i jus tend to interpret the wrong things almost everytime when there is a change in the tone.. the tone jus made me feel bad so i shut up.. cos i know that when i opened my mouth.. the tone and the words that come out wont be appealing too.. its a weakness in me.. and it has caused the unhappiness in both my family and my relationships w people..
i dun like the idea of things turning rotten at times.. if minus all these parts, all was well cos we match and mismatch..understand that no one is prefect and that no one is similar..we are not the clone of the other.. and we do express concerns for each other, we care(duh!) however, we both have THE temper(stubbornness and what-ing).. the temper is making our life a little messy.. i dun think these are known as quarrels jus maybe a little emotional ba.. its nt angry or anything its jus err.. i dunno how to put it.. but is it common in a r/s? i not very sure i am still learning to handle.. but it affects my mood for sure cos i become a little emotional.. the feeling of being 'snapped'( i cant find a good word but you should know what i meant) at isnt really good.. seriously i too understand wad it feel like when someone go ahead with the things you have asked him/her not to do.. i know you dun like it.. its a mistake today i made.. but what fails us at times will be our stupid temper.. silly cos at the end of the day we meant well for each other, not selfish reasons at all..
luckily we both of us are willing to let each other at times.. willing to apologize for our mistakes and somtimes maybe 'willing' to talk it out.. if nt things wont have worked out.. but how long will this willingness last? i dunno.. here comes the part that leads to uncertainty once again.. i hope its gg to be forever that both of us will be willing.. of cos at the same time we have to minimize the times we feel rotten.. for me it will be to learn to be sensitive to yr request at times and being insensitive at the other times (ie stop being defensive).. changing to suit each other liking is really important.. not a fundamental change cos we are still ourself but a change to accomodate each other; to not do things that the other party dun like.. as for you i will leave it for you u think abt it.. its not up to me to say.. all i thought now was that things will turned out fine.. dun you think so da? you had always told be to be positive:)
love the sweet things you did.. thanks for remembering everything i say.. rmbing that somtimes i will feel uncomfortable so you ask me for my opinion.. rmbing that my bag is always heavy and full of junk and then subsequently u always carried a bag to reduce my nonsense load.. rmbing that i am forgetful and then provide me with the necessary reminders.. telling me and ensuring me that things are gg to turned out fine, giving me the assurance and confidence.. teaching me when i dunno.. and many many more to go.. of cos most importantly rmbing the fact that i am here and for accepting me.. thanks for being here for me..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
