i didnt sleep well yesterday. i dunno why. so what i did was to sit down there and think about where i wanna go from where i am at today. tmr will be the last free day for me cos at least for a week or two i will be gg back to school to do some relief. erm i like the idea. cos besides i can get paid for what i like doing, i am at least not rotting. however, come to think abt it, if i were to be practical, relief teaching serve no purpose to my portfolio and resume at all. i am supposed to be an accountant and teaching has no link with that. *yawnz* so how? i also dunno jus rot my way thru ba..
then i saw the books i borrowed. i only completed the small one. the big book havent even start lar. bleats. i am slow i know. haha. jus lazy.
i continue to think and tada i ended up in my fanstasy world again. i tot about being in disneyland once again. haha. so kiddish right, but i really thought about being some where faraway enjoying my life. need not be disney type of world but its jus having the feeling of happiness and feeling the kid in me.. not that i dun enjoy my life now but i really thought i wanted to see the world maybe from a different perspective :) low chances cos for a allergic body like mine i know its not vv wise to go around travelling. but i know i will be well again. jus a matter of time. i will do what i like then and hopefully find a partner or buddy that is of similar interest of mine.. haha..
then i tried hard to picture what i will be like 10 to 15 years from now. 10 years from no now i will be 30 and yarr.. at 30 it will be a good carrer cos i would have been working for like 8 years alr?! oh my and hopefully i would have settled down. also, i would be able to look aft my papa, mama, brother and sis. haha.. sound so cliche right.. jus thinking ma.. no need money de. i always think abt wad my fur=ture will be like. ask meif i am scared of growing old, maybe not since i keep thinking abt whats like when in my 30s and 40s.. haha.. but i am scared of growing old in pain.. serious. as in pain can be in any form, physical or mental, i jus wanna be happy. tat simple. :)
anw there are lots and lots of things like i said need to be done. but i still tot i wanted to play somemore before i start. i have alr wasted one and a half week. but come to think abt it the intense 14 week semester has indeed drained a hell out of me. its time for a good brak. haha. an excuse i guessed.
and i finally went to exercise today. i did like 20 mins of running. i know it is chicken lar. buti have to start off light. dun wanna break my bone or have serious muscle ache.. haha.. really i havent been exercising for donkey years. and i am gluttoning like crazy. lol.
i didnt sleep well yesterday. i dunno why. so what i did was to sit down there and think about where i wanna go from where i am at today. tmr will be the last free day for me cos at least for a week or two i will be gg back to school to do some relief. erm i like the idea. cos besides i can get paid for what i like doing, i am at least not rotting. however, come to think abt it, if i were to be practical, relief teaching serve no purpose to my portfolio and resume at all. i am supposed to be an accountant and teaching has no link with that. *yawnz* so how? i also dunno jus rot my way thru ba..
then i saw the books i borrowed. i only completed the small one. the big book havent even start lar. bleats. i am slow i know. haha. jus lazy.
i continue to think and tada i ended up in my fanstasy world again. i tot about being in disneyland once again. haha. so kiddish right, but i really thought about being some where faraway enjoying my life. need not be disney type of world but its jus having the feeling of happiness and feeling the kid in me.. not that i dun enjoy my life now but i really thought i wanted to see the world maybe from a different perspective :) low chances cos for a allergic body like mine i know its not vv wise to go around travelling. but i know i will be well again. jus a matter of time. i will do what i like then and hopefully find a partner or buddy that is of similar interest of mine.. haha..
then i tried hard to picture what i will be like 10 to 15 years from now. 10 years from no now i will be 30 and yarr.. at 30 it will be a good carrer cos i would have been working for like 8 years alr?! oh my and hopefully i would have settled down. also, i would be able to look aft my papa, mama, brother and sis. haha.. sound so cliche right.. jus thinking ma.. no need money de. i always think abt wad my fur=ture will be like. ask meif i am scared of growing old, maybe not since i keep thinking abt whats like when in my 30s and 40s.. haha.. but i am scared of growing old in pain.. serious. as in pain can be in any form, physical or mental, i jus wanna be happy. tat simple. :)
anw there are lots and lots of things like i said need to be done. but i still tot i wanted to play somemore before i start. i have alr wasted one and a half week. but come to think abt it the intense 14 week semester has indeed drained a hell out of me. its time for a good brak. haha. an excuse i guessed.
and i finally went to exercise today. i did like 20 mins of running. i know it is chicken lar. buti have to start off light. dun wanna break my bone or have serious muscle ache.. haha.. really i havent been exercising for donkey years. and i am gluttoning like crazy. lol.
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
