i meant i am fine now for indedent NO.1 but as for incident NO. 2 i am still thinking abt it.. dun try asking me was NO. 2 is all abt i wont say.. its very very, extrememly important to me.. thats all i can say..
sometimes i wonderd wad i see two years ago was partially true.. things never change... i feel that i was picked on because of the simplicity and everything.. but deep down in me i cant lie that i was glad to be the chosen one.. the world is complicated.. for a little girl that is soon joining the no. 2 gang.. i feel like a total retard.. maybe i sow too many of my seeds hoping to get the returns.. but some of my frenz would tell me that when we sow seeds we dun expect returns..*shrugs* i dunno.. maybe they are ppl with vv good level of tolerance and yar maybe the situations and circumstances are diff..
after incident NO. 1.. i started to see more of myself.. more of something else.. yar to be its worth worrying (although all i can say ish i feel so tortured that i cry almost every night before sleep.. so silly right..)but to the others.. it might not be so.. maybe it jus the difference.. personality or gender wise.. sometimes i really tot of the difference.. then i will tell myself whether i was all right in moving in all these feelings in.. inv regretted now.. but i wont liketo regret it later as well.. sometimes i dunno.. like wad i heard recently abt another fren.. it only took 1 issue to blow things up.. hmm.. yar so give and take ba..
then it comes the saying that why do us people want to choose to differentiate right from wrong in all situations, arguements and events.. yar all i can say ish that is jus a habit.. a human nature.. yesh i totally agree that there is no particular right or no particular wrong in any issue.. we might perceive things differently from others that all.. however.. it always take 2 hands to clap.. when a person keep saying you are wrong, your ego in you will shield you.. and you will fight for yr rights..
its time to think abt training myself to be a bettre person.. more is needed to be done to make myself a better person, well not prefect but at least better than who i am today... move out from my little comfort shell to see more of the world..
i meant i am fine now for indedent NO.1 but as for incident NO. 2 i am still thinking abt it.. dun try asking me was NO. 2 is all abt i wont say.. its very very, extrememly important to me.. thats all i can say..
sometimes i wonderd wad i see two years ago was partially true.. things never change... i feel that i was picked on because of the simplicity and everything.. but deep down in me i cant lie that i was glad to be the chosen one.. the world is complicated.. for a little girl that is soon joining the no. 2 gang.. i feel like a total retard.. maybe i sow too many of my seeds hoping to get the returns.. but some of my frenz would tell me that when we sow seeds we dun expect returns..*shrugs* i dunno.. maybe they are ppl with vv good level of tolerance and yar maybe the situations and circumstances are diff..
after incident NO. 1.. i started to see more of myself.. more of something else.. yar to be its worth worrying (although all i can say ish i feel so tortured that i cry almost every night before sleep.. so silly right..)but to the others.. it might not be so.. maybe it jus the difference.. personality or gender wise.. sometimes i really tot of the difference.. then i will tell myself whether i was all right in moving in all these feelings in.. inv regretted now.. but i wont liketo regret it later as well.. sometimes i dunno.. like wad i heard recently abt another fren.. it only took 1 issue to blow things up.. hmm.. yar so give and take ba..
then it comes the saying that why do us people want to choose to differentiate right from wrong in all situations, arguements and events.. yar all i can say ish that is jus a habit.. a human nature.. yesh i totally agree that there is no particular right or no particular wrong in any issue.. we might perceive things differently from others that all.. however.. it always take 2 hands to clap.. when a person keep saying you are wrong, your ego in you will shield you.. and you will fight for yr rights..
its time to think abt training myself to be a bettre person.. more is needed to be done to make myself a better person, well not prefect but at least better than who i am today... move out from my little comfort shell to see more of the world..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
