yesterday was national day.. i dint manage to catch any of the fireworks cos i was out at a hse with no view.. yup in the afternoon i made a trip down to little guilin and yup the scene there was considered quite beautiful le.. to believe there is still an existence of such a place on the main island.. anyway there was packed with couples so it wasnt really a good idea for me to stay there.. ha..
then today was another day of school to be exact it would have easily been jus DAY2 of school.. saw quite a number of ppl in school cos practically i was moving all ard.. yup.. and i saw womenbande!!!! *big grins* yup..
i am suffering from quite a severe backache.. its now spreading and i feel the pain bothon my neck and my hip.. i guessed i really 'twisted it quite badly this time.. sob.. i hope i will get well soon..
as for the thing that i have been thinking abt recently.. certain things do change.. that no longer important.. i shall not harp on it anymore.. it jus that the thing now ish i feel that i am so secondary.. i jus thought the feeling was different... maybe i was sensitive.. maybe i dint make the extra effort to.. i guessed it was a main reason but i really dun like the idea of me having to look out for him and wait so that i can have someone to hear me out.. so i am starting to be independent.. cos we are talking less.. we have lesser time for each other (work, games, etc..)maybe he doesnt know it but sometimes from his reply whether is it over the phone, smses.. it can be felt.. i not tha slow and stupid to that extent.. so i didnt feel like talking anyone.. sometimes i wondered.. wads the different with the suggestion i gave that day.. ha.. to me it vv much alike.. then i will jus :(.. so does it mean that having a feeling ish all that it matters? i knew deep there.. i wasnt lying abt wad i feel for him..but things now.. i jus feel unimpt.. i never really mention that, did i? if it goes on.. i really dunno... problems can be solved? it sounded more like a lie now.. cos there wasnt even this mutual understanding abt wad i like and wad i dun.. and i realized i dun even know him.. its so like a stranger.. like at this vv moment i wanted to talk to him.. i cant.. *shrugs*... as a girl, i jus wanted the someone to be there for me.. that hard? maybe i was jus greedy..
yesterday was national day.. i dint manage to catch any of the fireworks cos i was out at a hse with no view.. yup in the afternoon i made a trip down to little guilin and yup the scene there was considered quite beautiful le.. to believe there is still an existence of such a place on the main island.. anyway there was packed with couples so it wasnt really a good idea for me to stay there.. ha..
then today was another day of school to be exact it would have easily been jus DAY2 of school.. saw quite a number of ppl in school cos practically i was moving all ard.. yup.. and i saw womenbande!!!! *big grins* yup..
i am suffering from quite a severe backache.. its now spreading and i feel the pain bothon my neck and my hip.. i guessed i really 'twisted it quite badly this time.. sob.. i hope i will get well soon..
as for the thing that i have been thinking abt recently.. certain things do change.. that no longer important.. i shall not harp on it anymore.. it jus that the thing now ish i feel that i am so secondary.. i jus thought the feeling was different... maybe i was sensitive.. maybe i dint make the extra effort to.. i guessed it was a main reason but i really dun like the idea of me having to look out for him and wait so that i can have someone to hear me out.. so i am starting to be independent.. cos we are talking less.. we have lesser time for each other (work, games, etc..)maybe he doesnt know it but sometimes from his reply whether is it over the phone, smses.. it can be felt.. i not tha slow and stupid to that extent.. so i didnt feel like talking anyone.. sometimes i wondered.. wads the different with the suggestion i gave that day.. ha.. to me it vv much alike.. then i will jus :(.. so does it mean that having a feeling ish all that it matters? i knew deep there.. i wasnt lying abt wad i feel for him..but things now.. i jus feel unimpt.. i never really mention that, did i? if it goes on.. i really dunno... problems can be solved? it sounded more like a lie now.. cos there wasnt even this mutual understanding abt wad i like and wad i dun.. and i realized i dun even know him.. its so like a stranger.. like at this vv moment i wanted to talk to him.. i cant.. *shrugs*... as a girl, i jus wanted the someone to be there for me.. that hard? maybe i was jus greedy..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
