and i am starting to give myself millions of excuses as to nt doing my stuff.. quite bad huh..
for the past few days i have been hanging ard.. trying to study a little but jus hasnt got the heart too.. haha.. on saturday i went out for the whole day and yup cleared one of my wishlist off.. sunday which ish today i did try hard to study then was off to do some 'shopping'..
i realized that the cash i have at home ish now ZErO.. how sad.. and i did some budgeting and its not hard to realized that i could only spend ard 40 per month when sch start.. ok maybe 50 at times.. sad right.. and the first month would be all the school fees, books, notes..yadayada.. and yup.. a relief ish that i managed to clear a present off which i wanted to get yet owe for quite sometimes..
jus a little thought.. suddenly i realized its nt abt wad we say that make the other party feel.. its abt actions.. i jus realized that i mainly felt unimportant due to one single factor.. i would nt wanna say wad it ish.. maybe i tot there is a need to change my expectations.. i dunno.. when no one ask i wont say.. but i am glad at LEAST i really sort it out.. yesh i am downright unimportant to a large extent.. maybe no one will realized my dissappearance in this world.. this is wad i tot of myself all along..
and i am starting to give myself millions of excuses as to nt doing my stuff.. quite bad huh..
for the past few days i have been hanging ard.. trying to study a little but jus hasnt got the heart too.. haha.. on saturday i went out for the whole day and yup cleared one of my wishlist off.. sunday which ish today i did try hard to study then was off to do some 'shopping'..
i realized that the cash i have at home ish now ZErO.. how sad.. and i did some budgeting and its not hard to realized that i could only spend ard 40 per month when sch start.. ok maybe 50 at times.. sad right.. and the first month would be all the school fees, books, notes..yadayada.. and yup.. a relief ish that i managed to clear a present off which i wanted to get yet owe for quite sometimes..
jus a little thought.. suddenly i realized its nt abt wad we say that make the other party feel.. its abt actions.. i jus realized that i mainly felt unimportant due to one single factor.. i would nt wanna say wad it ish.. maybe i tot there is a need to change my expectations.. i dunno.. when no one ask i wont say.. but i am glad at LEAST i really sort it out.. yesh i am downright unimportant to a large extent.. maybe no one will realized my dissappearance in this world.. this is wad i tot of myself all along..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
