sometimes its real easy to understand what a shitty piece of result can do to you.. i mean this kind of things are really kind of obvious.. i guess i will have to wait.. wait and see if luck will be on my side.. sighh.. to believe that i am now lagging in taxation, lagging in marketing readings, half lag in com law and jap.. and a risk quiz coming wed.. i think i will end my day today telling myself that i will be super hardworking from tomorrow onwards.. come on i need the determination.. the determination that will do miracles and mr determination will not ditch me along the way.. oh my..
i should now jus stop whining abt it and work harder isnt it.. i hope i landed myself w an internship and a job next yr this time.. if not i can imagine wad i will do.. i would have definitely hate myself for life.. and ya maybe jus knocked or dashed into the solid walls.. its a competitive life.. i jus cant tell myself that grades arent everything.. i can tell myself to take it lightly and be glad that as humans we shld be contented with that fact that we are living and happy.. i cant tell myself that.. i cant convinced myself that afterall.. things that are intangible are much more impt, leave the tangible things as it is, as long as u do yr best its gg to be fine.. i feel so hard telling myself that..its a lot of effort..
so if i am depressed jus let me be.. jus as long as i dun slipped into depression.. sometimes u dun need to show that u are depressed.. i dun wanna show, jus like i dun wanna show that the 'sensitive' side of me.. ppl think u are weak isnt it, or they jus feel u are running away from responsibility.. i dunno..
abt the past few days.. i had a wonderful vday.. and yar nice things were done for me.. i really appreciate them to the fullest fullest fullest.. i mean my uni life was made more wonderful because of this someone there for me.. to tell me to believe in myself, to continue and not give up.. he has been there to listen to my complaints and entertain me when i am bored.. i mean that really do take up some of my studying time.. as in to forgo some studying time.. but i exchange it with smiles, happiness and to be honest.. sometime sorrow.. but the time spent from then till now was wonderful.. i really appreciated it..
then there were jt's 21st bday at spore recreation club(if i got the name right).. its quite a nice place and the food was quite good.. night view was fantastic and we took lots of photos.. we meaning me, jy and lw.. those photos are definitely not for display since they are definitely all 'ugly' pictures with super retarted faces, cut out faces.. etc.. but it was fun.. thats friends and thats fun.. yy was there too.. but i think it will take time for her and her bf to join us since he might have been quite shocked seeing this side of us.. but what to do.. we are sama crazy people..
then now when i feeling all so ... ... i was rushed into doing something that i really couldnt get myself to do now.. it will be a torturing night.. i really dun like ending my day in this manner..
sometimes its real easy to understand what a shitty piece of result can do to you.. i mean this kind of things are really kind of obvious.. i guess i will have to wait.. wait and see if luck will be on my side.. sighh.. to believe that i am now lagging in taxation, lagging in marketing readings, half lag in com law and jap.. and a risk quiz coming wed.. i think i will end my day today telling myself that i will be super hardworking from tomorrow onwards.. come on i need the determination.. the determination that will do miracles and mr determination will not ditch me along the way.. oh my..
i should now jus stop whining abt it and work harder isnt it.. i hope i landed myself w an internship and a job next yr this time.. if not i can imagine wad i will do.. i would have definitely hate myself for life.. and ya maybe jus knocked or dashed into the solid walls.. its a competitive life.. i jus cant tell myself that grades arent everything.. i can tell myself to take it lightly and be glad that as humans we shld be contented with that fact that we are living and happy.. i cant tell myself that.. i cant convinced myself that afterall.. things that are intangible are much more impt, leave the tangible things as it is, as long as u do yr best its gg to be fine.. i feel so hard telling myself that..its a lot of effort..
so if i am depressed jus let me be.. jus as long as i dun slipped into depression.. sometimes u dun need to show that u are depressed.. i dun wanna show, jus like i dun wanna show that the 'sensitive' side of me.. ppl think u are weak isnt it, or they jus feel u are running away from responsibility.. i dunno..
abt the past few days.. i had a wonderful vday.. and yar nice things were done for me.. i really appreciate them to the fullest fullest fullest.. i mean my uni life was made more wonderful because of this someone there for me.. to tell me to believe in myself, to continue and not give up.. he has been there to listen to my complaints and entertain me when i am bored.. i mean that really do take up some of my studying time.. as in to forgo some studying time.. but i exchange it with smiles, happiness and to be honest.. sometime sorrow.. but the time spent from then till now was wonderful.. i really appreciated it..
then there were jt's 21st bday at spore recreation club(if i got the name right).. its quite a nice place and the food was quite good.. night view was fantastic and we took lots of photos.. we meaning me, jy and lw.. those photos are definitely not for display since they are definitely all 'ugly' pictures with super retarted faces, cut out faces.. etc.. but it was fun.. thats friends and thats fun.. yy was there too.. but i think it will take time for her and her bf to join us since he might have been quite shocked seeing this side of us.. but what to do.. we are sama crazy people..
then now when i feeling all so ... ... i was rushed into doing something that i really couldnt get myself to do now.. it will be a torturing night.. i really dun like ending my day in this manner..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
