end of the tax test that i know i for sure didnt do well, i nv finish studying was the number one reason. the last minute studying was another..
recently i keep having weird dreams, those that are vv related to myself, and ya i dunno why but i keep having those regarding some part of my brain not being natural.. anw besides the point.. recently i dun feel well, a little bit of the sun and drive a nutty headache in me.. tiredness is like drilling me flat and i dunno.. it is all accompanied by a weird feeling bloated stomach and gas-filled throat/chest (whatever one can call that.. those burpy feeling). anyway i dun feel vv much good about anything.. mainly because of this intense headache of mine.. i still have to luff it off u see.. no choice.. i cant be pulling a long face saying i am so in pain whole day right..
if this were to go on.. i need the doc for sure.. i have cleared at least 300g- 500g (safe estimate) of load off my head.. and still while typing this entry.. needles are pricking thru.. haiz..
worst at this current moment.. everything in the world jus dun fall into the places i hope they will be.. i feel i dunno what else i can do given my conditions..its like useless help.. i was remained abt the imptance of gpa.. i knew i flunged it.. tell me what i am good at.. i really dunno.. giving money, lending help, self help? none of the above.. i feel like crying once again..
i really feel like it.. NOW. CURRENTLY. maybe tmr i will go sit by the beach to cry my heart out.. i know it sound a bit gross and crazy, vv mentally unsound, but rest assure i am still alright, still thinking straight, jus wanted an avenue to let things go, drive all the &^%&$& stuff away.. cry cos of my lack of confident in myself, because of the pain, because of the stress... i mean nothing serious, i have totally master the skill of self blame.. i can jus stone now and start draining tears out.. its becoming more scary.. and its sort of becoming a split personality of mine.. i cant be left quietly alone to think.. is it a symptom of anything..? but sure i am ok.. i am thinking right..
end of the tax test that i know i for sure didnt do well, i nv finish studying was the number one reason. the last minute studying was another..
recently i keep having weird dreams, those that are vv related to myself, and ya i dunno why but i keep having those regarding some part of my brain not being natural.. anw besides the point.. recently i dun feel well, a little bit of the sun and drive a nutty headache in me.. tiredness is like drilling me flat and i dunno.. it is all accompanied by a weird feeling bloated stomach and gas-filled throat/chest (whatever one can call that.. those burpy feeling). anyway i dun feel vv much good about anything.. mainly because of this intense headache of mine.. i still have to luff it off u see.. no choice.. i cant be pulling a long face saying i am so in pain whole day right..
if this were to go on.. i need the doc for sure.. i have cleared at least 300g- 500g (safe estimate) of load off my head.. and still while typing this entry.. needles are pricking thru.. haiz..
worst at this current moment.. everything in the world jus dun fall into the places i hope they will be.. i feel i dunno what else i can do given my conditions..its like useless help.. i was remained abt the imptance of gpa.. i knew i flunged it.. tell me what i am good at.. i really dunno.. giving money, lending help, self help? none of the above.. i feel like crying once again..
i really feel like it.. NOW. CURRENTLY. maybe tmr i will go sit by the beach to cry my heart out.. i know it sound a bit gross and crazy, vv mentally unsound, but rest assure i am still alright, still thinking straight, jus wanted an avenue to let things go, drive all the &^%&$& stuff away.. cry cos of my lack of confident in myself, because of the pain, because of the stress... i mean nothing serious, i have totally master the skill of self blame.. i can jus stone now and start draining tears out.. its becoming more scary.. and its sort of becoming a split personality of mine.. i cant be left quietly alone to think.. is it a symptom of anything..? but sure i am ok.. i am thinking right..
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
comfort anyone..
