it tok me so long to decide whether to post this entry.
i know there is a difference. recently this thing has been lurking in my mind and i was wondering if i was right. it has cause quite a lot of imbalance to my life.
first, i uds that my parents do treat different kids differently. well, we are all born different. with different temper and emotions.
i thought maybe i took in too much. i tried to be the number 1 best child. it blew me up so much whenever ppl imply that i have been bad. not wanting to help out. but i really isnt.
who call back home on a trip out ith friends to report her whereabt.. i still do that.purpose not because i was asked to but rather i wan my paents to know taht i am safe.
i nvr lie abt my whereabt, i report back when i am gg to be late.
thus things turn out such that when i dun, it became a fault. something seriously wrong.
i wished to help. i went an extra mile to help. but comparatively, though nt the best child thatbhelp their parents with every little thing. i did change and make myself worthy.
guess i still qualify for being an evil child.
the chi doc asked me: do you have worries? are there lots of things you didnt share with anyone? do u take things as it is?
am i really such a person. at an age of 20 i really listen to everything if not most things. where a small episode can blow up to such a big thing. tell me. maybe i am jus still an evil kid. i am suppose to be the well mannered and most dong shi child at home.
expectation is the key.
it might be small, but it really hit me big. it hurts.
it tok me so long to decide whether to post this entry.
i know there is a difference. recently this thing has been lurking in my mind and i was wondering if i was right. it has cause quite a lot of imbalance to my life.
first, i uds that my parents do treat different kids differently. well, we are all born different. with different temper and emotions.
i thought maybe i took in too much. i tried to be the number 1 best child. it blew me up so much whenever ppl imply that i have been bad. not wanting to help out. but i really isnt.
who call back home on a trip out ith friends to report her whereabt.. i still do that.purpose not because i was asked to but rather i wan my paents to know taht i am safe.
i nvr lie abt my whereabt, i report back when i am gg to be late.
thus things turn out such that when i dun, it became a fault. something seriously wrong.
i wished to help. i went an extra mile to help. but comparatively, though nt the best child thatbhelp their parents with every little thing. i did change and make myself worthy.
guess i still qualify for being an evil child.
the chi doc asked me: do you have worries? are there lots of things you didnt share with anyone? do u take things as it is?
am i really such a person. at an age of 20 i really listen to everything if not most things. where a small episode can blow up to such a big thing. tell me. maybe i am jus still an evil kid. i am suppose to be the well mannered and most dong shi child at home.
expectation is the key.
it might be small, but it really hit me big. it hurts.
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
