today was my first lecture. yup year 3 really different. first lecture go in straight to the main stuff le. double entries calculation etc.
it really kind of sucks not seeing or cant really keep in contact w him. i dunno.. but it did pissed me off a little. well maybe he doesnt know his priority right. or maybe it didnt occur to him that its jus make me seem like an idiot. i am so sick and tired of it. i know this might sound rather selfish...
but whats the feeling like when ppl accompanying u ard for yr first week wasnt him but everyone else..
i met ed on my way to sch on train. catch up a little and then al called me. she helped me get my notes and yup i have to rmb still owe her 4 bucks. then met ah pek and he went with me to class. then he acc me to submit my report and aft that dessert eating session. all these while i tried vv hard to get him. the long stretch of say easily 3 hours?
sigh..
maybe i jus need the kind of feeling that he is ard. the feeling is enuff but sadly no. he chose this against that. i dunno. the msg received is always on the line of being sorry cos not free yada yada.. jus one week of sch and things turns out this way. to believe that i still chose this route jus like less than a week ago. what life going to be like...
jus received the msg that many ppl has pon or gg to pon the camp. while ppl can let go he couldnt. maybe its really impt to him. i dunno.. jus said something that he felt lazy of travelling 2 hrs back and that they are planning things for tmr so that they wont leave be more engaged and to prevent more people from pon-ing.. guess my feeling now. yup.
maybe he never thought of the feeling i will get, i guess..
when people can leave he couldnt. thats abt it. he knew whats my timetable like this first week. he didnt bother. i jus seem like an ass huh.
on days when he is free at home, 15 mins without my reply, he re smsed me. on days when he is having fun, 3 hrs no reply still nothing. haha. thats how significant i am once again.
on the other hand, maybe i never thought how significant all these is to him..
everything from his mouth cant be believed. really make disappointment larger.
sigh...
to believe tmr after the 730 class there with me is not gg to be him too. its ok... sometimes things have to be like that.. people ard me is like not gg to be him but anyone else.
isnt this sad. maybe if i am alone.. things will be better. and i wont think too much. cos when on the first day there is so many things to share, i have no one to talk to, how you tell me not to think. teach me.
today was my first lecture. yup year 3 really different. first lecture go in straight to the main stuff le. double entries calculation etc.
it really kind of sucks not seeing or cant really keep in contact w him. i dunno.. but it did pissed me off a little. well maybe he doesnt know his priority right. or maybe it didnt occur to him that its jus make me seem like an idiot. i am so sick and tired of it. i know this might sound rather selfish...
but whats the feeling like when ppl accompanying u ard for yr first week wasnt him but everyone else..
i met ed on my way to sch on train. catch up a little and then al called me. she helped me get my notes and yup i have to rmb still owe her 4 bucks. then met ah pek and he went with me to class. then he acc me to submit my report and aft that dessert eating session. all these while i tried vv hard to get him. the long stretch of say easily 3 hours?
sigh..
maybe i jus need the kind of feeling that he is ard. the feeling is enuff but sadly no. he chose this against that. i dunno. the msg received is always on the line of being sorry cos not free yada yada.. jus one week of sch and things turns out this way. to believe that i still chose this route jus like less than a week ago. what life going to be like...
jus received the msg that many ppl has pon or gg to pon the camp. while ppl can let go he couldnt. maybe its really impt to him. i dunno.. jus said something that he felt lazy of travelling 2 hrs back and that they are planning things for tmr so that they wont leave be more engaged and to prevent more people from pon-ing.. guess my feeling now. yup.
maybe he never thought of the feeling i will get, i guess..
when people can leave he couldnt. thats abt it. he knew whats my timetable like this first week. he didnt bother. i jus seem like an ass huh.
on days when he is free at home, 15 mins without my reply, he re smsed me. on days when he is having fun, 3 hrs no reply still nothing. haha. thats how significant i am once again.
on the other hand, maybe i never thought how significant all these is to him..
everything from his mouth cant be believed. really make disappointment larger.
sigh...
to believe tmr after the 730 class there with me is not gg to be him too. its ok... sometimes things have to be like that.. people ard me is like not gg to be him but anyone else.
isnt this sad. maybe if i am alone.. things will be better. and i wont think too much. cos when on the first day there is so many things to share, i have no one to talk to, how you tell me not to think. teach me.
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
