been trhough a rushing week and while every day i start off by telling myself to do intensive mugging things turns out otherwise.
tuesdays big4 networking night though helpful, was a drain out. totally drop tired after that one night. besides, the neverending networking session, i was thinking real hard about the ranking of my choices. everyone in sch is talking abt whats the first and the last choice. i din really think about it because i have so low confidence in my grades. what if i werent even shortlisted for any interview. what if i screwed up the interview. to me, though i have some preference for each of the individual firm, i understand the realistic part comes when i can tell myself that only when i was shortlisted and that the firm issue me with the offer.
ya.. i really do hope i get them... sigh if only... that 1 screwed up sem didnt take place. but its pointless now. the only things certain is that i am serious about a job and promise and definitely for god sake will mia my way through, work hard and earn money. learn, grow and marture, and the track decided as always audit. thats the few certainty till now.
skipped 306 and TCM today because again, my life, like wad daisy says, dun revolve jsu ard me and myself, i have some unspoken responsibilite sthat i feel bad if i dun do them. i cant be off in a chalet wothout worrying abt my siblings back home. i cant say i wished to stay at home to study if i know that i dun accompany my mum for breakfast, she will be eating alone in the coffeshop. i cant tell myslef that when dad is oversea, i can continue with all my going out. the feeling of having and needing to be responsible, as an eldest child, as an eldest sis, as a student, as a gf nvr ends. not that i want it to end, i jsu thought what i wanted was that everyone else is happy, happy and still happy. i wanna spend my time with no regrets, do my part, before things turns different. i dunno when all these kind of feeling came about but, i really felt i wasnt a superwoman, but still wanna achieved those. i nvr a all rounder in terms of skills and abilities. but i strived to be manage to be one when it come to the aspects responsibities, family, love and time.
guess tahts explains my opccasion breakdowns.
i wanted to mug hard for the coming 304 and 306 quiz. popquiz for 304 today was disastrous. i mean although u might have some crapping power, picking out the little mistakes in the MCQs are me real tough. the answer can be wrong jus because of a 'only' or 'most' or 'in itself' that were to subjective thus making teh option false. well, well, there are still ppl who pick it out isnt it.
304 10 mcq and 2 short ans. 15 % overall. how short is short. you need to tackle the questions rightfully. and the prof doesnt look like one who you can kid with. guess if u screw it up, she will pick on you everytime. i will study but do also wish me luck.
306 20 mcq, questions according to the mickey mouse was that it ranges form easy till rot to challenging till explode kind. hmm, the most tabao module, what to do, study...
final exams in a month time, the time when intensive readings and understandings suddenly make me turn out that i could actually undertsnad concepts but jus a little too late. the promises at the start of the sem, I WILL NOT SNOWBALL, definitely fails each and every sem. hmm.. thats life isnt it. i only have a last sem to go to say that and hope next sem i truly put this across with great success.. but i doubt so. ermm..
then the issue with us. the fact that i am rather lost in terms of the directions. the purpose thou there but sometimes i dun uds whats with all the exchanging of terrible remarks. is doing things for me so difficult? or am i the one making things difficult.. i dunno what to expect and what not to. i understand and really feel that lots of changes are made on his part. but my pt was simply -- doing it for us, doing it for me. the issue here is really about me getting angry. since i cant simply tight someone up for life, if its impt for you jus go. if i dun really like u gg out w a grp of ---- then 10 years down the road, it will still be the same. cos to me, my basic principles lies in the fact that ifi will avoid go on any trips that with friends of opp s jus alone at all cost. thats the POINT. if cant... rather make me disappointed now.
i mean i didnt feel so strongly prior to pl incident. really.. its that plus i see a grp of them. ya.. i guess its jus part of a human nature -- taking things for granted.
and for the first time, today, trashing out the thoughts on what is it tht i actually dun like, i felt rather petty and being a lousy gf. maybe simply cos i am willing to put in that much, but i now know i should not expect any returns, because tahts not being fair.
and to top things up.. i am feeling the bloody cramps. when roaring studying is supposed to come.
been trhough a rushing week and while every day i start off by telling myself to do intensive mugging things turns out otherwise.
tuesdays big4 networking night though helpful, was a drain out. totally drop tired after that one night. besides, the neverending networking session, i was thinking real hard about the ranking of my choices. everyone in sch is talking abt whats the first and the last choice. i din really think about it because i have so low confidence in my grades. what if i werent even shortlisted for any interview. what if i screwed up the interview. to me, though i have some preference for each of the individual firm, i understand the realistic part comes when i can tell myself that only when i was shortlisted and that the firm issue me with the offer.
ya.. i really do hope i get them... sigh if only... that 1 screwed up sem didnt take place. but its pointless now. the only things certain is that i am serious about a job and promise and definitely for god sake will mia my way through, work hard and earn money. learn, grow and marture, and the track decided as always audit. thats the few certainty till now.
skipped 306 and TCM today because again, my life, like wad daisy says, dun revolve jsu ard me and myself, i have some unspoken responsibilite sthat i feel bad if i dun do them. i cant be off in a chalet wothout worrying abt my siblings back home. i cant say i wished to stay at home to study if i know that i dun accompany my mum for breakfast, she will be eating alone in the coffeshop. i cant tell myslef that when dad is oversea, i can continue with all my going out. the feeling of having and needing to be responsible, as an eldest child, as an eldest sis, as a student, as a gf nvr ends. not that i want it to end, i jsu thought what i wanted was that everyone else is happy, happy and still happy. i wanna spend my time with no regrets, do my part, before things turns different. i dunno when all these kind of feeling came about but, i really felt i wasnt a superwoman, but still wanna achieved those. i nvr a all rounder in terms of skills and abilities. but i strived to be manage to be one when it come to the aspects responsibities, family, love and time.
guess tahts explains my opccasion breakdowns.
i wanted to mug hard for the coming 304 and 306 quiz. popquiz for 304 today was disastrous. i mean although u might have some crapping power, picking out the little mistakes in the MCQs are me real tough. the answer can be wrong jus because of a 'only' or 'most' or 'in itself' that were to subjective thus making teh option false. well, well, there are still ppl who pick it out isnt it.
304 10 mcq and 2 short ans. 15 % overall. how short is short. you need to tackle the questions rightfully. and the prof doesnt look like one who you can kid with. guess if u screw it up, she will pick on you everytime. i will study but do also wish me luck.
306 20 mcq, questions according to the mickey mouse was that it ranges form easy till rot to challenging till explode kind. hmm, the most tabao module, what to do, study...
final exams in a month time, the time when intensive readings and understandings suddenly make me turn out that i could actually undertsnad concepts but jus a little too late. the promises at the start of the sem, I WILL NOT SNOWBALL, definitely fails each and every sem. hmm.. thats life isnt it. i only have a last sem to go to say that and hope next sem i truly put this across with great success.. but i doubt so. ermm..
then the issue with us. the fact that i am rather lost in terms of the directions. the purpose thou there but sometimes i dun uds whats with all the exchanging of terrible remarks. is doing things for me so difficult? or am i the one making things difficult.. i dunno what to expect and what not to. i understand and really feel that lots of changes are made on his part. but my pt was simply -- doing it for us, doing it for me. the issue here is really about me getting angry. since i cant simply tight someone up for life, if its impt for you jus go. if i dun really like u gg out w a grp of ---- then 10 years down the road, it will still be the same. cos to me, my basic principles lies in the fact that ifi will avoid go on any trips that with friends of opp s jus alone at all cost. thats the POINT. if cant... rather make me disappointed now.
i mean i didnt feel so strongly prior to pl incident. really.. its that plus i see a grp of them. ya.. i guess its jus part of a human nature -- taking things for granted.
and for the first time, today, trashing out the thoughts on what is it tht i actually dun like, i felt rather petty and being a lousy gf. maybe simply cos i am willing to put in that much, but i now know i should not expect any returns, because tahts not being fair.
and to top things up.. i am feeling the bloody cramps. when roaring studying is supposed to come.
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
L.i.F.e
