was extremely sorry for bringing this out. its the worst regret that i ever made till date. to let it even pop out once..
but i cant accept the fact that things turn out this way. i cant uds why relationships must maintain to such a close extent and that why is it that without them, it is as if it will kill. i know i am not a good person. but its today i realized that there are many more things to be ironed out.
now i am waiting for the sch to announce the electives. then, i can plan my timetable. and start to lead this so called life.
kept asking myself, was it a habit, but dun think a habit cn result to a hurt so much. i wanna grow up. a simple thing like wanting us to be ok is like so tough.
friends afterall are friends. but, somehow.. u need and like to have many. best if its of the opposite gender. i dunno why. but while trying to make to see tis sensitive me, i missed out on the greatest thing -- why cant things be simple? are they so impt?
if the ans to the both questions are YESes, then the decision is made.
being 21 make me see lots of things - happiness, love, care and concern. yet on the other side there are friends, enemies, arguements and agreements. third parties, terrible husbands, horrid bfs. i really should not be living to see all these. they are supposed to be lessons and not personal experiences. but why are they so deeply imprinted there. its phobia.
to ease all these pains, i will work the heart and soul out of myself. last sem to study and then work. i know by doing this, i will be trading off my leisure and happiness. i will even be trading off part of my life. but living int his world is like that. cant take the pain, then ignore it. cant run away from it for life, its ok, then shorten it.
maybe and seriously, walking down this path of confidence myself would be a better way. since then, i wouldnt extend this pain to more people.
was extremely sorry for bringing this out. its the worst regret that i ever made till date. to let it even pop out once..
but i cant accept the fact that things turn out this way. i cant uds why relationships must maintain to such a close extent and that why is it that without them, it is as if it will kill. i know i am not a good person. but its today i realized that there are many more things to be ironed out.
now i am waiting for the sch to announce the electives. then, i can plan my timetable. and start to lead this so called life.
kept asking myself, was it a habit, but dun think a habit cn result to a hurt so much. i wanna grow up. a simple thing like wanting us to be ok is like so tough.
friends afterall are friends. but, somehow.. u need and like to have many. best if its of the opposite gender. i dunno why. but while trying to make to see tis sensitive me, i missed out on the greatest thing -- why cant things be simple? are they so impt?
if the ans to the both questions are YESes, then the decision is made.
being 21 make me see lots of things - happiness, love, care and concern. yet on the other side there are friends, enemies, arguements and agreements. third parties, terrible husbands, horrid bfs. i really should not be living to see all these. they are supposed to be lessons and not personal experiences. but why are they so deeply imprinted there. its phobia.
to ease all these pains, i will work the heart and soul out of myself. last sem to study and then work. i know by doing this, i will be trading off my leisure and happiness. i will even be trading off part of my life. but living int his world is like that. cant take the pain, then ignore it. cant run away from it for life, its ok, then shorten it.
maybe and seriously, walking down this path of confidence myself would be a better way. since then, i wouldnt extend this pain to more people.
Pamela a simple 'yet not really so' girl
21 going 22
NTU(accountancy)graduate brand new in the the working world
loves being loved
loads of nonsense full of craps
aims to achieve the best
wanna achieve all her dreams big and little
